Guide me?

Since our move I have experienced my share of disappoints. The cost of living here in California is much more expensive than what we were prepared for. Finding a job was a challenge to say the least. I applied for more than 30 different positions before getting an interview. My stress level increased when we had to fight the military tooth and nail for a proper reimbursement of our moving expenses. I can't begin to describe how homesick I am. When I say "home" I am not referring to a specfic place on the map but more like place where I can hug my family and friends. A place that feels like home because I am a part of their experiences and surrounded by their love. I am beyond tired of getting lost and being in a strange place. I think the most dicouraging event took place last week at my doctors office. I went in for a flu shot. I left with a possible heart condition. I will admit that I am still in shock. When everything seems to come crashing down around us my husband takes it all with a grain of salt and always comes out strong. He is steady like a 100 year old tree in a hurricane. He has an ability to camoflauge weakness that is comforting and leaves me feeling safe and secure. But lately my husband, my family, and my friends have been unable to reassure me that I can get through these next few years. When I am struggling with a difficult situation the last thing I want to hear is "everything happens for a reason". Why do we say this? I've said it many times when comforting friends or family, Ive even said it to myself.I guess it was last week after church when I had my Aha! moment. EVEYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON. The reason is God. I have always believed in God. I have always prayed.But no matter how hard I prayed I felt like my prayers werent getting answered. I now realize that instead of praying for a baby, money, or relocation I will pray for faith and ask God to guide me and to help me except his plan for me. I learned this weekend that faith is like a muscle that can be strengthened. All we need is a small spark of faith and the willingness to make it grow. We all have times in our lives where we are faced with overwhelming obstacles. God allows hurdles to land in our path to remind us of our need for him and to draw us closer to him. These hurdles are a part of our walk along this journey of faith. The Bible states that "...we had this sense of impeding disaster so that we might learn to trust, not in ourselves, but in God who can raise the dead." I will continue to strengthen my faith in God and ask for his guidance to lead me to peace during difficult times.