Wednesday, May 11, 2011
Count me in

"Don't measure the distance; measure my love."
When my husband was in fourth grade he drew a picture and wrote a paper titled "when I grow up I want to be G.I. Joe". Shortly after his 18th birthday he left home to make his dream come true. He joined the United States Marine Corps and was serving with 1st Battalion 8th Marines in Iraq on his 20th and 21st birthdays. He didn't seem to mind that he was missing presents, family, and cake. He is an extraordinary, selfless man. On his 22nd birthday we had a huge celebration planned. We were to spend his birthday drinking and eating with our family and friends. Instead, we spent the day sitting in a room at the Liberty Inn eating Bojangles because of a flaw in some paperwork. We did finally arrive to Massachusetts where we spent three years on recruiting duty. My husband was a very successful recruiter, shaking hands and kissing babies. But it was primarily a desk job and in the end not his cup of tea. After careful consideration of leaving the military to take a civilian job, he re-enlisted. When my husband reported to the 2d battalion 8th marines I began to see him less and less. It is harder than you can imagine to share my husband with the Marine Corps. Even when he's home, he's rarely "home". It started with over night field trainings several days a week, accompanied with an occasional 24 hr duty, and 30 day trainings in VA and CA, followed by a very difficult deployment in 2009 and another in 2011. This summer will make 3 out of 5 wedding anniversaries that he has missed. We've sacrificed Christmas, thanksgiving, graduations, and even funerals. I guess the most shocking part of it all is that I would do it again. Exactly the same way. We have met the most amazing people on our journey. I can't describe the friendships and bonds you build with other marines, wives, moms, and some that have no affiliation with the military at all. I am certain that I would have never crossed paths with these terrific men and woman if I had chosen the easy way out and stayed in Hendersonville, NC. Of course I miss my parents, brothers, grandparents, uncles, aunts, cousins, nephews and friends! I am lucky to have their support. They understand why I am who I am, why I love being a Marine wife. They are equally proud and amazed by husband. He is our hero. Our journey is only beginning. As we grow closer to homecoming a new adventure awaits. This year on my husbands 28th birthday he got to call home. The first words he spoke to me were alarming. "Are you sitting down?" Not what I had planned for. I was thinking more along the lines of "Happy Birthday!". He quickly informed me that the Marine Corps gave him a present. Orders to California. He was afraid I would panic and all though I had never planned for a move to the west coast, I became excited! Relieved almost. The future is never guaranteed and even more uncertain with the military. We don't have the luxury of planning things like some families. It's nice knowing where we are headed next. No matter where the road leads us I will always stand by my Marine. I will always be at home waiting for him, loving him... even if he spends every birthday with the Marine Corps.



Sunday, April 3, 2011
Warfighter
Monday, February 7, 2011
Tick-Tock
Job or no job I am still the luckiest girl in the universe. I thank God for my many blessings. I know he will always see me through my challenges. Even the long boring ones. :)
Deuteronomy 31:6
Sunday, January 9, 2011
Pro's and Con's
Think of a bad day that you had recently. Were you sick? Did you get stuck in traffic? Maybe it was the death of a loved one? Was your child hurt? Unexpected bills? Now, think of going through all of these things alone.
This was my biggest fear on May 16th 2009 as my husband entered his third deployment. This was our first deployment as husband and wife. The beginining was scary. The unknown. He stepped onto the bus with his weapon on his back. As he sat there staring out of the window with his big beautiful dark eyes I couldnt help but wonder if I would see him again. Every night I would lay in bed crying and torturing myself with what if's. A few weeks into the deployment I opened my mail box hoping to find a letter that had traveled from the other side of the world. Instead, I found a book sent to me from a North Carolina church. This "Book of Inspirational Prayers and Quotes" was accompanied by a letter. I was disappointed to say the least. I shoved the book back into the envelope and didnt touch it for weeks. One night I stumbled upon it and as I flipped the pages a quote jumped out at me:
"IT IS OUR ATTITUDE AT THE BEGINNING OF A DIFFICULT TASK WHICH , MORE THAN ANYTHING ELSE, WILL AFFECT IT'S SUCCESSFUL OUTCOME" -William James.
After reading that quote for the first time I wanted to slap myself. I had concentrated on the negatvies. I made a list. I guess it could be considered a pro's and con's of deployment. On one side I wrote down all of the bad things. I wrote how my heart ached to hear his voice every day. I wrote how much I hated this war. I wrote how I didnt want him harmed in any way. This half of the list was very lengthy. Finally, I begin the other half. The pro's. On this side I wrote how proud I was of my husband. I wrote how wonderful it was to be loved by this unseflish and most courageous man. That was all I wrote. I ripped up the first half of the list. Those two things were all that mattered. They were enough to get me through the remainder of the deployment.
I will celebrate my birthday and my anniversary alone. I will go to doctors appointments, vet appointments, and change my oil alone. I will attend cookouts, weddings, and funerals alone. I will do these things with a full heart and a smile on my face because the man I chose to spend my life with chose the military before he chose me. I am among the silent ranks. I do not wear a medal for a job well done. Instead my reward is having the honor to be married to a United States Marine.
Monday, November 15, 2010
Another Day in Paradise
The next morning the alarm sounded and immediately my mind went into over drive. It was a Saturday morning. Most families are having breakfast or watching cartoons with their children but we on the other hand had an agenda with a big ol USMC seal stamped at the top. We loaded hundreds of pounds of gear into two bags. Yes, two. My husband has acquired many skills in the military, he is now an efficient packer. Before we hopped into the car I went into the bathroom and had a silent cry. I looked at myself in the mirror and reminded myself that I am strong! But I made a point not to wear eyeliner. The worst part was waiting for the buses. It seemed like days.

After one last kiss I watched my entire world board a bus with his weapon over his shoulder and determination on his mind. Today I woke up to an empty house. I am certain that God equipped me with an autopilot button. I continue through the daily motions :shower, food, work, tv, bed, etc but mind is occupied because my heart is away training for war.
